Once I had a Dream

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Once I had a Dream

Once I had a dream, bright and full of vigor,

Colors passed by my eyes, but I could not figure,

What they meant or whence they came,

But I stood tall and felt no shame.

No shame for believing in a dream,

To take a chance,

Though it may seem,

Bigger things were not meant for me,

For am I small you see.

But aren’t we all but merely dust,

Upon the planets floor,

But fight against the mundane we must,

To create and too explore.

For we are all but diamonds, sparkling on a dark sea floor,

We are but stars, burning forever more,

We are what we choose to be, we are our own destiny.

So, dream a bigger dream with me,

You are what you believe.

I just wrote a little poem.It just came to me and it got me thinking about how when we are young we are so full of dreams. Dreams for a better life, dreams for a future career, hobby, house, lover, whatever.

When something happens, it's called life. Life gets in our way. Why haven't I finished my novel yet?Life.But what will ultimately stop us is death. My favourite quote is, 'Life isn't about waiting for the storm to clear,  but learning to dance in the rain.' This is so true and something I've been trying to practice the last couple of years since I found it on a fridge magnet at the Reject Shop.

If you want something bad enough, then you make no excuses. I've had times when I could have worked on my book more, but I chose to watch T.V or go on Facebook etc. Always saying, 'There's always time, I'll do it later, tomorrrow,' etc.

I read a few years back that if you only write when your inspired, then you will never finish your novel. This was mind blowing to me. You're proaably thinking, 'Well duh', but I grew up with the concept that a artist only does things when inspired; it was the cliche I had seen on T.V.

I think writer's block is actually a myth, I've only had it once or twice in my life. I've had periods where I din't feel like wriitng, I wasn't in the mood, but true writer's block i mean, where I literally could not comeup with a thing. If you can't thunk of anyhting to write, it's not an excuse to give up, but rather go out, live your life, gain some new and refreshing pereptives and you will soon find you feel inspired again.

You have to learn to treat writing like any other job and take it seriously if you want to succeed.  I didn't realise the real commitment and hard work that must be out into such inspiration. I got into the habit of writing 1000 words a day at one point and powered through  my novel, but yes, then life happened.

I got divorced, my kids got diagnosed, I became a single mum, I found love again, got married for the 2nd time, I started homeschooling...I hardly worked on my novel.

Things have settled down for the time being, but still my novel begs to be edited and see the light of day. It's time I recommit myself to my first love-writing.

My Thoughts on the 'Big A Reveal'

Wow, so Pretty Little Liars totally went there! I'm still undecided as to whether I'm satisfied with the end of session reveal. I can't help but feel that it was sloppy writing to some degree, or was it a divisive story writing method? Will it be explained later on down the track and will it all make sense? With the time leap at the end of season 6A, I doubt it.

Cece was revealed as Charles with a transgender story line-but was this a good/bad idea-and does it actually matter? Was Marlene King trying to say it doesn't matter how your born, everybody has the potential for evil so we can't treat this matter with kid gloves? Was she just trying to fool us all, and that is why A appeared at times both feminine(doll obsession) and masculine? Or was it wen A appeared to be different things, it's because it really wasn't A, but one of her minions?

With all the recent comments about Bruce/Kaitlyn Jenner, was this deliberate bait, just to get a reaction? I don't know, only Marlene King does, but I think it probably was. I do love the idea of the story line though, it's a very modern and clever story device. I just really wish the writers had of spaced it out over a movie length episode, rather than bam, here's a lot of answers that don't make an incredible lot of sense, we've teased you all this time, now have fun working out the rest kind of way.

I think at the end of the day, I don't mind the transgender story, it's actually quite a clever twist, and it gives you much more empty for A than I think we might of had otherwise. Charles was rejected by his father for something he couldn't help, which, makes it all the more tragic, but I just wish it hadn't of been Cece.

I think Cece looks too boring, too bland to be that evil. Look at Mona, she looks dark and mysterious with the brooding looks she gives, you can imagine what evil things she might be plotting next. But maybe that's another point of Marlene King's, you never can really tell what is inside someone's head. I never really suspected Cece being A.  did however think she was Ali's sister because of the comments made a few season's back.

I really wanted the show to take a darker turn. I wanted someone we didn't want to be A to be A. I wanted it to be Toby, or even one of the Liars with a split personality. It would of just have been mind blowingly shocking. And even though, I didn't think it was Cece, I wasn't shocked it was her.

I mean I invested hours of my life into this show! I wanted to be shocked!

A lot of people guessed it was her, and that she was actually Charles, so hat's off to them! I'm just still perplexed and annoyed that so many questions were left unanswered.

I'm not going to go into them here as a list can easily be found on the Internet.
I'm just wondering if these things will ever be made sense of? I've kind of lost interest in the show now because of this! But of course, I will keep watching, I won't be able  to help myself!

The Creepiest Kid's Movie Ever?

The kids and I have been watching a lot of 80's movies's of late, just to show them what we watched when we were kids...and let me tell you, the reactions are varied. 'Willow' was acceptable, as was the 'Never Ending Story', just about everything else as laughed at, complete with eye rolls at the tragic special effects.

The other day I sat down and watched Labyrinth with my kids. I saw it once when  was a teenager and didn't really like it much, but bored for entertainment, we raided the T.V cabinet (It's my partner's DVD). My son loved it and giggled at the silly, corny jokes, while I tried get into the story.

For a while I was enchanted, Jim Henson did possess a magic all of his own after all, but there was something darker and disturbing about this little tale. It seemed to imply,that a very clearly over 40 Bowie, was longing after a underage girl and even on an LSD trip?

Perhaps I'm reading to much into it, but doesn't Sarah say at the start  of the movie the Goblin King had fallen in love with the young girl?

Even more disturbing than David Bowie' clear infatuation with a teenage girl were the many close ups of his cod piece-now was that really necessary in a kid's movie?

All I can say, is what were you thinking David Bowie?

On the surface this tale appears to be your typical child's fantasy story, but there have been many articles written on what is really going on it the movie.

Two movie alluded to in Labyrinth are 'The Wizard of OZ' and 'Alice in Wonderland', I know a lot of people would start with the mind control theories, but I'm not going there, there's enough on the net about that without me even speculating on that.

I found the ending very disturbing, because it appeared to me that she had gotten home alright, but then, her friends appear out of nowhere in her room, and  couldn't help but wonder if they were all in her imagination and in the end she thought they were real? Perhaps Sarah was more disturbed than we thought?

It is just one of those movies that leave you wondering what you just watched. I'm sure many people take it at face value, other wise it wouldn't of been so successful, but there is always usually, some undertone or under lying idea/theme behind what is written. I think the makers of the movie were very aware of its intention, as also it sparks controversy, by having an old Bowie, playing the romantic interest to the young girl.

Hollywood has traditionally had large age gaps between leading co stars, but how young is to young?

And of course,all this conjecture is based merely on implied sexual tension and attraction between the to characters. But to me,it just felt weird and awkward. It would of been better to have a younger Goblin King and let the two main characters fall in love, then it would  of been even more tragic when they had to part.

I think if you are going to have a love interest in the story,then you want something to happen between the love interest and the main character, why make it wierd?

But perhaps too, Bowie's character represented Sarah's awakening sexually, as she is quite clearly a teenager,and he represents both sexually and fear of that unknown sexually, thus by being older, she can't quite reach him....but is all this really necessary in a  children's movie, that is going to go over there heads?

I just think that if your going to have all  these themes and undertones, put them in the right context so that you are hitting the right audience. Then your story will have so much power and depth.

I am a MASSIVE Jim Henson fan, and always have been, but this movie just fails to get to me. It just leaves me questioning it's intentions.

So basically, I am a Bowie fan and a massive 80's fantasy fan as well, and I am a lover of Gothic Fantasy because of being exposed to these types of movies in my childhood, but Labyrinth just disturbs me...more so than any of the other offerings from it's time...